I find you quite troublesome. Sure, I find you inspiring, but outrageously troublesome. Why can’t you be normal?
Nah, I don’t want you to be normal. I want you to be you. The problem is in figuring out who you are.
I love the challenge of writing a character who is not human. There is both a blessing and a curse, however, in writing a character that is unlike any character you’ve ever read in your favorite literature. The blessing, of course, is that you draw from ideas and inspirations to create something new. There is an enormous amount of liberty in this! The curse, conversely, is that you can’t go back and read what Tolkien wrote about this type of character. There is a real limit to the amount of gleaning you can do from others’ writing in terms of describing how this character might move, act, speak, fight, et cetera.
You, Pillire, are every challenge I could hope for, and every challenge I could loathe. You are my obsession. You are at once both entirely new and entirely familiar to me, and I am truly struggling to capture you in writing. I do see glimpses of you in other characters, but I hesitate to draw from those examples for fear that you may become too much like them.
What I do know is that I am quite smitten with the idea of you. I find myself wishing that you were not a character in my fictional writing, but were a real being, with substance and form and life. Since you are not, I will continue to struggle with writing and creating you.
Part of the problem, I must admit, is that I am human. You are superhuman. Your level of wisdom and intellect far surpasses my own! How do I write a wisdom that is superior not only to mine (which isn’t such a huge accomplishment, truly), but to any I’ve ever witnessed. And remember, some of my other characters are based off of some of the wisest folks I’ve ever known. So I’m challenged not only to write you wiser than anyone I know, but wiser than any of my other characters. You truly are a pickle for me, you know that?
But you are who you are. And if you can be who are you, then I can write who you are. It is a challenge, but it is not an impossible undertaking. I am confident that the more time and energy we put into this, the better a character you will be.
And by “better,” I do not mean “perfect.” I mean simply that you will be more accurately and well written. You are by no means perfect! You are aloof and snotty, if you want to know the truth of it. I must be cautious not to humanize your flaws too much, but even you will undergo a change of heart before the final word is written. I look forward to this a great deal.
This would be easier if I could draw.
But since I can’t, I must rely on words and word excercises. So, if anyone is reading this blog entry, I am going to ask a favor of you: Ask me a question about Pillire. That’s it. Ask me a question about him. Don’t ask a lame question, like “what kind of creature is he,” because I won’t tell you (if you don’t know already, then I don’t want to spoil your expectations by revealing too much). Ask something thought-provoking, something you would ask if you were interviewing your hero, something like, “who is YOUR hero?” In fact, that is a good question. I may use it.
My next exercise, after gathering some questions, will be to answer them as Pillire. This should be both fun and informative.
Pillire, don’t give up on me. I’ll write you successfully. I promise.